Since I lost my mom at the age of 12, I have always worried about something happening to me and my kids being left without a mom because I know how hard that was for me. It may sound weird, but it's been a very real struggle for me. With every ache and pain I had, I could dream up something terrible that was wrong with me and that it was going to kill me....the invention of Google didn't help things because then I could diagnose myself based on my symptoms over the internet:) When I fly somewhere I just know the plane might go down every time there is turbulence:) I always hug on my kids before I leave to go out of town, even if just for a couple of days. I also worry about something happening to Scott and being left a single mom. It's silly I know, but true none the less. I always tell him to be careful when he leaves to drive somewhere. He's used to it and just laughs and shakes his head. I guess I just know how life can change in an instant...it's happened to me.
Sometimes I worry or stress about insignificant things that really aren't even that big of a deal. I have to remind myself that there are much more important things to worry about. I always tell Scott that it's a good thing he's not a worrier because I do it enough for the both of us:) I actually am much better about this than I used to be...I even think my husband would agree. We had something unexpected come up in the last few months that in the past would have made me sick with worry, but I really was at peace in the midst of it. Scott even noticed and commented several times on how well and calmly I handled the situation.
I have had to work and pray so often over the years for God to help me in this area of my life. In the book of Matthew, Jesus talks about worry and there is a scripture I have had to go back to time and time again. It says, "Seek first His Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:33-34, NIV) This scripture has been my constant prayer....that I would seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and everything else will be taken care of....I'm so thankful for this promise. I do believe I'm not the worrier I used to be and I know that a big part of that is because I've learned to lean on God for the peace that only He can bring.
So the sixth thing I've learned in this countdown to my 40th birthday is that, "Worrying doesn't take away tomorrows troubles; it takes away todays peace"...author unknown. I want to live in peace today and lean on God for all my tomorrows....